Resolution

i promise never to leave u alone
i promise to share the whole life with u
i promise to love u as best as i can
i promise to walk with u till the end of my life

"""............LOVE....................."""

”Love suffer long and is kind: Love does not envy;

love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;

does not behave reudely, does not seek it’s own, is not provoked,

thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity,

but rejoices in the truth;

bears all things, believes all things, endures all things.”

Love Never Fails

SecreT............

Lend me thy ear
I’ve a secret to share
That I Love You
And it’s very much true
Don’t spread the words
Just keep them with you
I’ve a secret to share
Lend me thy ear

Your tears

In the last winters,
When you were here,
I can't forget,
The time we shared.
The little fights, more joys,
The chocolate cake, and gifts of toys.
Laughing together till our tears fall,
Then getting a hug from you leaned to the wall.
The words were three,
But they meant lot to me.
The kisses in the air,
I thought were fair.
Coming to your home,
Meeting to your mom.
The moments were high,
And I don't lie.

Now the year has past,
Another winter is about to last.
The time can't be recalled,
I tried but I failed.
I know I ditched you,
You said 'I know you'.
My mistake is unforgivable,
Still I think you are lovable.
But I can't come back for sure,
I have taken a wrong path though.



Your love was I treasured the most,
I know I can't repair the loss.
But I'm happy as you can see,
The same I want you to be.
Please........
Don't fall your tears for me,
I beg to you on my knee.



The poem may not be rhyming to perfection,
But that is how I can show my affection.



So....
Smile always, for you look beautiful when you do,
And I wish the life gives the best to you

FRIEND

"There was a time when we didn't even know each other, not even each other's name. And today we're so comfortable with each other that I just changed my underwear while you were facing the other side and you didn't even realize that", these were my friend's words a few days ago in our PG room.


I was shocked and surprised at the same time. I was laughing and abusing him that why he didn't ask me to leave the room so that he could change. And then next moment I realized that he was right. We were so comfortable just because we were friends. Friendship is such a wonderful thing that it makes two completely strange individuals completely known to each other. Friends know more about ourselves than our own family or even more than we know about us.


As I'm in a different city now, leaving him alone in that strange city, I'm actually missing those days. We were like a big support to each other in that alien city. Away from our homes, our families and everything, we were like much needed companions to each other.


Talking about friendship I can only say that those are lucky who have got a good friendship. Friends even less in number, if true, are the most precious gift of God. Like they say, we can't choose our family but we can surely choose our friends. But I somewhat differ on that aspect. You get good friends, like good family, if you're destined to.


And the best and surprising part is, you don't remember the time when your strangeness was transformed to friendship. You just can't recollect that moment.

Sunday..............the funday

O Sunday
You've come again
I was waiting for you eagerly
For there is no other day
Which I can live in my own way


Full of week
I don't find time
To do the things I love to do
It's only you which helps me
Week after week
And then pass away silently
Without giving a chance
To give a word of thanks


You provide me with enough time
To pick up the book half read...
To find the words for a poem to finish...
To meet the pals waiting there for me...
To sleep one extra hour in the morning...
To sit with the family for lunch...
To surf the net till it feels boring...
To write a new post on the Blog...
And for many more things alike...
Without the need to watch the watch


But you come only for a day
And when you leave
It's feels sad to wish you good bye
Though only for another week


There is always a hope to see you again
And you always keep your promise
You've never been late
Come exactly when I need you


O sunday
I love you so much
For there is no other day
Which I can live in my own way

Open ended poem..................

You and me, hand in hand,
Walking together, on the wet sand.

The footsteps behind we leave,
Are witness of our love I believe.

When the sun gets ready to set in the west,
And the moon comes out full at its best.

When the water of the sea touches your feet,
I’ll open my arms to give you the heat.

This very moment I wish never last,
But soon you realize the limits you passed.

You push me away to get out of the lock,
I’m still trying to come out of the shock.

You run away giving a naughty smile,
I try to follow you till the next mile.

You keep eluding me like a butterfly,
And I keep wondering where the end of the sky.

In no time you go out of the sight,
I can’t see you even the moonlit is bright.

Please come back, I know you are teasing,
Still I’m worrying, you know I’m freezing.

Since the day you have gone,
I’m living but all alone.

No one is here to see my tears,
Of course I have my nears and dears.

But the place you are having in my mind and heart,
No one can replace even a little part.

So turn back and keep your words,
Don’t you know how much it hurts?

I won’t complete the poem until you’re here,
I want you to write the best rhyming pair…..

Blessed

Like a usual evening, I was sitting on a bench in the park in front of my home reading a book. The slow breeze seemed like tickling me and singing some mellow song which I was feeling inside. Suddenly a little boy, just about 7-8 years old, came close to me.


"I wish I could read", he said and walked away.


Before I could realize what he had just said, he was out of sight. He left me thinking that blessed are those who get a chance to be educated.


I lost the page of the book I was on. Breeze, for me, stopped right there. And so did the mellow song. And so did it's tickling touch.

One more second

Whatever I be
I don't want to be the best
I just want to be there
As long as I can
Till everyone else quit
I don't want to be the best
I just want to be there
One more second than all others

One another night

It is darkness all around
Close to one o’clock in the night
By this time
You must be in deep sleep
But for me, it’s another night
A night full of agony and melancholy
The thoughts don’t stop inside
The path is not clear outside
I spent most of my nights like this
Just thinking about the times we had
And you, you just don’t care damn it
Sometimes I think it’s over
Next moment it takes me all over
You are moving so perfectly dear
How you do, just let me hear


Stars in the sky seems to laugh at me
How they twinkle annoys me
By this time
You must be with your dreams high
And here I am, no signs of sigh
My eyes are sleepy
My mind is about to burst
And my heart, I’ve no clue about
What’s wrong with me
I was never like that
Was full of life and hope
See me now just for once

The chants of birds outside wake me up
From the sleep I haven’t had last night
It’s about to dawn I think
By this time
You must be cuddling the pillow tight
Still holding on the dreams of night
I wish you wake up the happiest way
And you just have the best this day
Let me alone be at my own
I’ll keep loving till I’m gone.

"Moments..................."

there are moments
which we don't want to let go
at least not as easy as they wish
one that moment just passed away
of course I tried to keep hold
but could not make it
it slipped...
slipped out of hands
as does the sand
no complaints... no regrets...
I had much...
much that I could ever treasure
still less than wished for
hope still remains
that someday
I'll live a moment like this again
then the memories will pour like rain...

Now nobody is here.............

Its time for me to be a nobody now.
Where are the promises?
Victorian house,
Goodnight kisses,
Oven hugs,
No more.
I don't deserve.
At all.
sHe should leave.
sHe is leaving.
I shall stay here and watch her leave.
I hate myself.

WORDS

When I want to speak my heart out
You come across to help me
Thoughts, feelings, frustration, love
All you say just wonderfully
Words... I love you so much


When I'm happy you come out fast
When I'm sad you prefer to stay back
All you do I believe is true
Whenever I need you I don't lack
Words... I love you so much


However one moulds you, you don't mind
Just a little push and you make rhyme
I wonder how you do it all alone
It seems like you're perfectly honed
Words... I love you so much


It becomes difficult to find you sometimes
When I have to confess or apologize
Or just a simple thank you wish
Even when making a love proposal
Words... Still I love you so much

Use me

If you wanna use me,
I won't mind.
But...
Use me properly,
Coz I don't wanna be
used again........ In love,
By anybody else
like you.
So...
Trash me completely,
When your need is over.

Together we were.........................Happy

when the time i recall back...
and i realize what i lack...
it makes me insomniac...
together we fought, together we played...
together were all the memories we shared...
the good and the bad times we had...
even when no times we had...
we were together like being mad...
living alone is living dead...
together we were like beads in thread...
i have no clue what made us apart...
i wonder if we can again start...
but life what they call it strange...
has it's own rules we can't change...
we have what we don't like...
we lose what we want to hold tight...
i wish someday we meet in this journey again...
the love that was lost i want to regain...

SHE............................

When I saw her first
I thought she was what I seek
She was what I want


Times kept passing at it's pace
We came close, more close
Our days were brightened up
Our nights were lightened up
The talks we had
The walks we had
Every moment was worth living
Sitting close to her
Witnessing the beauty she carry
Not only outer but eternal
is all what I've now to cherish


Why she loved so much
I couldn't understand till now
What made her glued to me
I'm not able to discover yet


She.... What was she made of?
Love, pure love, for sure.


Then happened the unexpected
I changed the direction of my journey
She stood there wishing me good luck
I moved forward waving her good bye


Can't turn back
Even if I do, I can't see her there
Not because she is moved away
But because I've come so far
So far that I'm out of her vision


It's too late to realize
that love can fit all size
I don't deserve her I believe
for she is too good for me to achieve


She.... What was she made of?
Love, pure love, even more than that perhaps.

home:i miss you a lot

I want to go to home,
the place where i belong
coz luv there is enough for me.
miles are getting longer since
the closer i was to you,
i might not be the best friend for you
but my luv for you was always true,
i don't know why
but you haven't given me a second try
so i want to go to home,
the place where i belong
coz luv there is enough for me.
these places and these faces are getting old,
so i want to go to home.

Memories

I got haunted by my memories.
I cried last night when i was about to sleep.
Just so sudden.
I feel so angry on myself.
Why?
I had been trying to get over.
And i know i did. In some ways.
I stop thinking. I understand and I move on.
But what happen again?
I started to miss her hugs.
To miss the time she spend with me.
I know!
I know its because i rely too much on her!
Its love!
But why?
I just don't feel right.
I want to be myself again.
That old me.
I saw a meaningful quote on Eunice Low's wall.

Pain makes you stronger. Tears makes you braver. Heartbreaks make you wiser. So thank the past for better future.
Isn't it awesome? Yeah.
At least she's alive.
I get to know if she's happy or not with a call.
I want her to be happy.
I have to let her go.
And support her in whatever things that she do. Behind her.
Give him all the help that he needs. In some other ways.
She doesn't love me anymore.
It means even if she comes back, she wouldn't be happy.
And then both of us will struggle.
Thats not what i want.
No way.
So i need to mke her happy in her life.
MY LIFE!

i m sorry

I'm sorry, *
for saying all those things in my blog.
If i hurt you, i'm sorry.
I hope you don't put it to heart.
I wish i can talk to you about everything,
make it clear to you.
Trust me, i mean no harm!
So.. yeah.
Hope to hear from you soon!
And i'm sorry.

whom to blame

She says she doesn't like me.
sHe ask if i can feel it.
I can't.
I don't want to feel it!
I really feel that we will have chance.
Why did it turn out this way?
Am i the 1 that has been cheating myself all along?
What should i do now?
I am clueless.
I don't want to give up still.
But what can i do?
sHe says she is slowly forgetting me.
Then what about me?
I am on the same spot.
I dont want to move on like she does.
But how?
Don't i deserve a chance?
Maybe i don't.

I hate myself

I feel so lost today….Have i never been good to u…all those times i spent with u..all those moments with u meant nothing at all…i just am a piece of shit…why didnt i die that day only..wat the fuck am i alive for…..i hate myself…god i hate myself

There's nothing called"LOVE"

I hate myself..............

for doing my own mistakes..............

and i can't make it right................i hurt people

and i don't notice it............what a damn huh

yah i know i am.................

u don't need to tell me

but i am happy to be one of the dammest person in the world coz

i just realise i learnt to be damn strong.

life......................

what is there to live in this ruthless world

what is there to hold me back......

what is there to cry for......

what is there to be faithful,

Because at all the faces I stare...

I see sadness,loneliness and incompetence.....

as I see the faces and eyes..I slowly realise that its a mirror

image of me,me and only me.........

the word called 'LOVE'!!!!!!!!@@@@@@@@??????????..............

some say "love is life"

i say "life is love"

love the one who loves you

and live for the one forever.

i know love is always just,

itcan never rust.

love make one right,

it makes one's life bright.

it was a suprise,

to see myself arise.

it was visible,

she was eligible,

she had a smile

that can take me up a mile.

she had a voice

that let me no choice

i was not a protogonist

it was not a elocutionist.

i was just a lover,

a lover of her friendship and love.

i had the expectation

that she could understand my passion

for i could never mention

the cause of my tension.......

yes i love her

for my eyes are now dire,

the thought of her departure

made my haert go rupture.

love make me a dart

it broke my heart.

it was lyk a onslaught

whose blood never clots.

it was a small prick

but now it is a big brick.

i thought love was a lifetime passion

but it changes with fashion.

friends said that i have gone mad

for i always remain sad.

but this is love

sometimes good,sometimes bad.

now that i go to bed,

i found my eyes red-

it has tear

that was earlier rare.................

Broken "DREAMS"

My eye flashes open... It was restless sleep.... I was consistently bugged by this dream... which had so much to do with my present life at the moment... I could not take this anymore....

... and then she smiled and mouthed those three words... “I love you”.. the world went into a tumultuous heap... I couldn’t believe it... I had finally won... Victory of love was achieved by me.....

I went over to the adjoining wash basin.. I splashed water several times on my face... I looked up at the mirror... What i found staring back at me wasn’t me... or was it??

... oh... the gardens of romance.... those tunnels of love....

“And the big wheel keep on turning neon burning up above

And I’m just high on the world

Come on and take a low with ma girl

On the tunnel of love”

-Dire Straits....

I wiped my face.. and rested on my bed... My leaden eyes drooped off... another disturbing dream... I woke up... my face covered with beads of sweat....

.... It was a hard time for us.... “The people are spreading rumours about us”, she said... “So what??”... “... I think its time for us to go our separate ways...”

I could not get sleep tonight... My room was dark and murky... a sinister thickness hung in the air... I was all alone in my room... I had to get out of there...I couldn’t stay there...

Yet we couldn’t break off completely.. sworn best friends for ever... We knew everything about each other....I couldn’t help harvesting the seed of love in my heart....

I stared out of the window at the valley down below.... why did it have to happen? Why to me? Curse those people...

.... She was having a very tough time back in her place.... She was being blamed of philandering too much with me... People refused to believe that we’d broken up... cant a girl and a boy remain best of friends?? Is the society so narrow minded? She cried everyday.. I felt like paying the world back for every teardrop she shed...

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I put on my jogging apparel.. I needed some fresh air... But somehow my movements seemed to be uncoordinated... As if I was inebriated.. I put it down to my lack of sleep... A gust of cold wind welcomed me as i opened the door...

... Her friends had threatened to leave her side... She was blamed for something she had never done... for which she had to risk her friendship with everybody... I tried to help but they blamed me to be an accomplice to her “crime”.. We were isolated.. yet we were there for each other... to fight the world together... But she couldn’t bear it anymore... How long could we wage a lost battle?

It was a cold winter night, the mist had just about settled....I shivered.. Damn I should have got that jacket.... I jogged about half a mile to one of my favourite places in the countryside.. I could sit there for hours and in the end feel very content.. Aptly I called it the “peace point”.. I sat there on the cliff with the valley overlooking me as i went through the incidents of the previous day.... a sudden impulse.... to get it all over... after all two steps and I would be free of it all.... Damn it all!!!

... She had left... Neither had she left her number or her address... I was shocked.. I couldn’t find a trace of her... her housekeeper told that one of her relatives had come to take her to her hometown... How could I find her?? My world was shattered.. ... and so was my heart...right there on her doorstep...

The sun arose from behind the hills.... I’d been there for 3 hours but at that moment I realised what a fool I would have been to do what I had contemplated... It was a new day.... It was a fresh start....

“It's a new world

It's a new start

It's alive with the

beating of young

hearts

It's a new day

It's a new plan

I've been waiting for you

Here I am”

-Bryan Adams

I looked down at her doormat... underneath it was her handkerchief.. with the three words that meant the world to me....

“I love you”

I sat down and cried.... Tears of solitude flowing down my cheeks......

future beholds...............

Once upon a time..

..I loved the past
But now I've gone forward...
I've realized I cannot love the past while I'm in the present, so I let go...


I let go of those memories that held me captive for so long..
Those dreams I once knew that were brought to life by you,
Now are only there to help me fall asleep at night
I am going on by myself..

I am going forward into my future with hopes that my new dreams will someday come true just like you had done for me..

My last call.........................

my voice is choked

i cannot speak

you tend to go away

but i cannot stop you

tell me,are you forced to go?

or do you want to go?

no,do not answer,because

i fear it is the latter

i know,a few words

i'll speak and you may return

yet the words inside me

remained unexpressed

i know i'll have to regret

about this through my life

i close my eyes in anguish

and two tears moistened my cheeks

you are going,'i realise'

'please' a whisper escapes

but audible only to me

i am deserted

your shadow is receding

but your footprints will remain

my lips are parched,my fingers numb

and so is heart