Now nobody is here.............

Its time for me to be a nobody now.
Where are the promises?
Victorian house,
Goodnight kisses,
Oven hugs,
No more.
I don't deserve.
At all.
sHe should leave.
sHe is leaving.
I shall stay here and watch her leave.
I hate myself.

WORDS

When I want to speak my heart out
You come across to help me
Thoughts, feelings, frustration, love
All you say just wonderfully
Words... I love you so much


When I'm happy you come out fast
When I'm sad you prefer to stay back
All you do I believe is true
Whenever I need you I don't lack
Words... I love you so much


However one moulds you, you don't mind
Just a little push and you make rhyme
I wonder how you do it all alone
It seems like you're perfectly honed
Words... I love you so much


It becomes difficult to find you sometimes
When I have to confess or apologize
Or just a simple thank you wish
Even when making a love proposal
Words... Still I love you so much

Use me

If you wanna use me,
I won't mind.
But...
Use me properly,
Coz I don't wanna be
used again........ In love,
By anybody else
like you.
So...
Trash me completely,
When your need is over.

Together we were.........................Happy

when the time i recall back...
and i realize what i lack...
it makes me insomniac...
together we fought, together we played...
together were all the memories we shared...
the good and the bad times we had...
even when no times we had...
we were together like being mad...
living alone is living dead...
together we were like beads in thread...
i have no clue what made us apart...
i wonder if we can again start...
but life what they call it strange...
has it's own rules we can't change...
we have what we don't like...
we lose what we want to hold tight...
i wish someday we meet in this journey again...
the love that was lost i want to regain...

SHE............................

When I saw her first
I thought she was what I seek
She was what I want


Times kept passing at it's pace
We came close, more close
Our days were brightened up
Our nights were lightened up
The talks we had
The walks we had
Every moment was worth living
Sitting close to her
Witnessing the beauty she carry
Not only outer but eternal
is all what I've now to cherish


Why she loved so much
I couldn't understand till now
What made her glued to me
I'm not able to discover yet


She.... What was she made of?
Love, pure love, for sure.


Then happened the unexpected
I changed the direction of my journey
She stood there wishing me good luck
I moved forward waving her good bye


Can't turn back
Even if I do, I can't see her there
Not because she is moved away
But because I've come so far
So far that I'm out of her vision


It's too late to realize
that love can fit all size
I don't deserve her I believe
for she is too good for me to achieve


She.... What was she made of?
Love, pure love, even more than that perhaps.

home:i miss you a lot

I want to go to home,
the place where i belong
coz luv there is enough for me.
miles are getting longer since
the closer i was to you,
i might not be the best friend for you
but my luv for you was always true,
i don't know why
but you haven't given me a second try
so i want to go to home,
the place where i belong
coz luv there is enough for me.
these places and these faces are getting old,
so i want to go to home.

Memories

I got haunted by my memories.
I cried last night when i was about to sleep.
Just so sudden.
I feel so angry on myself.
Why?
I had been trying to get over.
And i know i did. In some ways.
I stop thinking. I understand and I move on.
But what happen again?
I started to miss her hugs.
To miss the time she spend with me.
I know!
I know its because i rely too much on her!
Its love!
But why?
I just don't feel right.
I want to be myself again.
That old me.
I saw a meaningful quote on Eunice Low's wall.

Pain makes you stronger. Tears makes you braver. Heartbreaks make you wiser. So thank the past for better future.
Isn't it awesome? Yeah.
At least she's alive.
I get to know if she's happy or not with a call.
I want her to be happy.
I have to let her go.
And support her in whatever things that she do. Behind her.
Give him all the help that he needs. In some other ways.
She doesn't love me anymore.
It means even if she comes back, she wouldn't be happy.
And then both of us will struggle.
Thats not what i want.
No way.
So i need to mke her happy in her life.
MY LIFE!

i m sorry

I'm sorry, *
for saying all those things in my blog.
If i hurt you, i'm sorry.
I hope you don't put it to heart.
I wish i can talk to you about everything,
make it clear to you.
Trust me, i mean no harm!
So.. yeah.
Hope to hear from you soon!
And i'm sorry.

whom to blame

She says she doesn't like me.
sHe ask if i can feel it.
I can't.
I don't want to feel it!
I really feel that we will have chance.
Why did it turn out this way?
Am i the 1 that has been cheating myself all along?
What should i do now?
I am clueless.
I don't want to give up still.
But what can i do?
sHe says she is slowly forgetting me.
Then what about me?
I am on the same spot.
I dont want to move on like she does.
But how?
Don't i deserve a chance?
Maybe i don't.

I hate myself

I feel so lost today….Have i never been good to u…all those times i spent with u..all those moments with u meant nothing at all…i just am a piece of shit…why didnt i die that day only..wat the fuck am i alive for…..i hate myself…god i hate myself

There's nothing called"LOVE"

I hate myself..............

for doing my own mistakes..............

and i can't make it right................i hurt people

and i don't notice it............what a damn huh

yah i know i am.................

u don't need to tell me

but i am happy to be one of the dammest person in the world coz

i just realise i learnt to be damn strong.