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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Resolve




It's that time of the year again.
That inter-year period, when the last, remaining members of the old year are slowly dying out, but the new ones have not yet been lit. This is a time of peace. And of silence.
The last year was not a year I'm particularly planning to remember in the long run. It was depressing, in many little (and indeed, sometimes huge) ways. Encounters with Death and all his friends. Personal losses and not-too-pleasant revelations.
Artifice.
But all that is dying out in the wee hours of this new dawn.I'm looking forward to changes, both personal and public ones. I'm looking forward to action, I feel strangely restless this year.To shaking off this sense of ennui, of claustrophobia.Yes, it's that time of the year again.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

SILENCE!!!!


This is the moment
Where the world forks
And both, for a moment,
Are 'the path not taken'
And the pending decision,
A split-second away,
Sings solemn siren-songs--
This is home,
And I am at peace
In the grey spaces
Where silence resounds.

Monday, April 13, 2009

People and Places


This is the beginning of the end.
Somewhere else, new things are stirring. And the old, familiar
ones are beginning to rust, beginning to mould themselves into
immovable patterns set in time.
Like nostalgia.
Places begin to fix themselves too, piecing together scraps of
memory to form an identity.
People are made of places.
Places that seep into you like rain, leaving behind faint
irremovable marks.
There are places I’ll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I’ve loved them all.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

One Blue Morning


"I don't believe in baptism or the waters of Jordan or anything like that, but I guess I feel about a hot bath the way those religious people feel about holy water."
I woke up feeling quite blue. Many new hurdles. Some ends. Quite a few beginnings. And all the confusion, pressure and haze that transition sometimes brings. Didn't know what to do. Room was in disarray. Seemed like a representation of current state of affairs. Alarming. So tidied up. Didn't feel better. Felt like I was tucking the stray tee shirts of pending deadlines, payments, worries and other woes out of sight. Paranoid. Had to act. Fast.
I've always related to Sylvia Plath. I remember reading The Bell Jar the day before my HS examinations were supposed to start, and feeling completely awed by the book and the author. And the images. That felt almost like they had been pulled out of my subconscious.. I was quite volatile then, and realised later that perhaps it would have been wiser to have read the book after the exams were over. But I've never regretted it... It's become one of my favorite books, and I love Plath. I've digressed too much...
So, I decided on something that never fails. Hot shower therapy. It was a 30 minute long slow and relieving process. By the time I stepped out my skin was pink and there was enough steam to affect visibility. A clean room, a purified body, lovely morning shadows on the bed, sweet smell of aromatic oils, a cup of green tulsi tea and a good 30 minutes of daimoku...
The world seemed like a better place already. And by the time I left home, there was a renewed sense of hope. :)

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

love story


A CUTE LOVE STORY-

A BOY HAD CANCER AND HE HAD ONE MONTH TO LIVE.HE LIKED A GIRL WORKING IN A CD SHOP VERY MUCH.BUT HE DID NOT TELL HER ABOUT HIS LUV.EVERYDAY HE WENT TO THE CD SHOP AND BOUGHT A CD ONLY TO TALK TO HER.AFTER A MONTH HE DIED.

WHEN THE GIRL WENT HIS HOME AND ASKED ABOUT HIM, HIS MOM TOLD THAT HEDIED AND TOOK HER TO HIS ROOM.....................................SHE SAW ALL THE CD'S UNOPENED ...............THE GIRL CRIED N CRIED N FINALLY DIED.YOU KNOW Y SHE CRIED?

ÇOZ SHE HAD KEPT HER OWN LUV LETTERS INSIDE THE CD PACKS.SHE ALSO LUVED HIM.............



moral of the story:

if u love someone......say to him directly don't wait for the destinyto play the role.............otherwise u will lose that person .....

No COMPROMISE


No compromise
No fear
Today and again tomorrow...
A day for freedom
A day for living
A day for the lost ones
A day for the found
A day for victory laps
A day for looking back
No. Look forward, no matter what
Who, or why. Don't look back.
Try to save the ones you can.
Leave the rest.
No. Leave no one behind.


Whoever thou art.
I love you.
Care for you.I wont let you fall.
Angels in the darkness.
Shine brighter than in the sky.
Brilliant light embraces us all.
And reminds usOf our purpose.
Of humanity.
Of love.

Not an easy road.
Did I ever say it will be.
Not an easy day.
Night's still a long way.
No time to rest.
No time for self-pity.
Or guilt.
Or regret.
The only way is forward.
The only sign in 'Go'.


May we have the strength of lions.
Wisdom of kings.
Love of angels.
Fire in our eyes.
And hearts.
Fire in our soul burning bright.
Ever so bright, in the thine eyes.


Maybe you'll stumble.
Maybe you doubt.
Maybe you'll have a tear.
Drop from a mile high.
Even heroes have the right to bleed
Even heroes have the right to dream.
But heroes we are
And always will be.


None can stop us.
None can ring the bell of defeat.
If we are alert.
None can bring us down.
Unity is key.
Be constantly alert.
Dialogue is key.
But choose your words.
They can be double-edged swords.


I'm not so good with words.
I falter for lack of rhymes.
I cant sing.
For my voice is perpetually broken.
I cant talk right.
For words do not come to me.
I have the heart.
I have the purpose.
All that is left.
Is to act.
To do.
To win.
We do not,Cannot compromise
Or fear.
Therein lies the path to salvation.
Are you with me?

Monday, March 16, 2009

with or without


Where were you when I needed you?
Where were you when I called?
I called till my throat was sore, my voice so harsh, I couldn't recognise it anymore.
Where were you babe?
But it doesn't really matter no more.
We are too far gone..
But even through the haze, all I can remember is the tenderness of a love gone wrong.
I always thought we could fix it, I always thought we'd try.
I was obviously mistaken.. Damn, it made me wanna cry..
I've left our station far behind.. And sometimes I can't even remember why we were there..
But still when I look back, despite all the darkness, I can only see the love.. And baby, I hate that I care.
Understand that in spite of it all, I am going to be strong.
I know my love is irreplaceable, cos I know how it was.. between the effect, and the cause.
I'll never make them mistakes again., And I hope the same for you.
It's still so hard to believe at times, but I know it is true.
Cos baby, Come What May, Time will heal this too..

Thursday, January 22, 2009

my first created kabita..................




kichu katha bolar ache
kichu path cholar ache;
kichu sapno dekhar ache
kichu bhalobashar ache;
bhebe dekho kishe labh kishe khati
jibonta jeno hawar majhe lorai kora mombati.

Friday, November 21, 2008

"DaDa"...............we will miss you










Sourav Chandidas Ganguly also known as "Dada" is an Indian cricketer. Born 8 July 1972, lives at Barisha in Kolkata, formerly Calcutta, West Bengal, he made his One Day International debut against Australia in 1992, and a Test debut versus England in 1996. He went on to become the captain of Indian cricket team from 2000 to 2005. He has led India to the World Cup 2003 finals, and holds the Indian captaincy record for the most Test victories. Following an exit from the national team in early 2006, he was recalled to the Indian Test side in December, staging a successful comeback in the 2006 - 2007 Indian tour of South Africa.




Ganguly is a left-handed batsman and a right-handed medium-pace bowler. He is a natural right-hander, but converted to the southpaw stance at a young age so that he could use his left-handed brother, Snehasish Ganguly's equipment.




Nicknamed Bengal Tiger, Prince of Calcutta and also affectionately called Dada (elder brother in Bengali) by his team-mates and Lord Snooty by his opponents, he is an aggressive player on and off the field. He made his one-day international debut in 1992, but his talents did not truly receive the recognition they deserved until India's 1996 tour of England when he scored centuries both in his debut Test as well as the next match (the second and third Tests of the series). Ganguly is only the third cricketer ever to score a century on debut at Lord's, after Harry Graham and John Hampshire (Andrew Strauss has also since accomplished the feat). Rahul Dravid once commented, "On the off-side, first there is God, then there is Ganguly”. He scored 183 against Sri Lanka at Taunton in the 1999 Cricket World Cup, the highest by an Indian in World Cup cricket. He became captain within a year after the world cup and scored 2 centuries in the 2000 champions trophy immediately after. While he has achieved significant successes as captain, his individual performance deteriorated during his captaincy, especially after successes in the world cup and the tour of Australia in 2003 and the Pakistan series in 2004. Following indifferent form in 2004 and poor form form in 2005, he was dropped from the team in October 2005. He has since remained active on the first class cricket scene in hopes of a recall, but his performance has been mixed - he has hit a couple of centuries in domestic cricket, but his English county stint in 2005 and subsequent appearances in the Challenger Trophy were failures.




Consistent batting failures of the Indian cricket team, more so than his own mediocre to good performances in the domestic circuit led to his recall to the Indian Test squad in November 2006. Although India lost 2-1, Sourav Ganguly was the highest run getter for India, and only batsman to hit more than 200 runs in total. On January 12th 2007 he was recalled for the one day squad as well, where India play host to West Indies and Sri Lanka in a one day tournament. On January 21st, Ganguly hit a match winning 98 against the West Indies.




Sourav Ganguly made his international debut against Australia in India's tour of Australia in 1992. He didn't score much and was dropped from further matches. Four years later, following a good domestic record, he was recalled into the national side for a Test series against England in England. He made his Test debut at Lords, with a century in that match and repeated the feat in the match which followed. He was retained for the One day team and he went on become a regular in both forms of the game. One of his most memorable performance was in the final of the Independence cup at Dhaka against Pakistan, when the entire Pakistan team walked back in stating bad light along with the umpires, but Ganguly refused to come in. Ganguly scored 124 in that match in darkness, while Hrishikesh Kanitkar scored the winning runs with a boundary.




In 2000, after the match fixing scandal Ganguly was named the captain of the India team. In 2003 under his captaincy India reached the World Cup Final, where they lost to the Australians. Ganguly has scored over 10,000 runs in One Day Cricket and over 5,000 runs in Test cricket, including 12 centuries in Tests and 22 in ODIs. In terms of number of centuries in ODIs, he is exceeded by Sachin Tendulkar and Sanath Jayasuriya. Sourav, along with Sachin Tendulkar, formed by far the most successful opening pair in One Day Cricket, having amassed the highest number of century partnerships (16) for the first wicket. Together, they have scored 5,308 runs at an average of 45.37. Sourav has been succeeded by Virender Sehwag as opener.




He is the third player to cross 10,000 ODI runs and so far the fastest one to do so, after Sachin Tendulkar and Inzamam Ul Haq, and reached 6000, 7000, 8000 and 9000 ODI runs milestones in least number of matches played. Sourav can bowl medium-pacers as well, but has under-achieved in this aspect in Test matches, taking 25 wickets in 84 matches, at an average of 52.47. In 2004, he was awarded the Padma Shri. As of 2006, he is the only Indian captain to win a Test series in Pakistan (although two of the three tests of that series was led by Rahul Dravid).




Sourav Ganguly's 10 year international cricket career could be easily bisected into 2 halves, the pre and the post Y2K eras. The significance of the year 2000 lies not only in the fact that he became the captain of the Indian team but also in the fact that the ICC introduced the one bouncer per over rule in ODIs starting from that year. This introduction of the rule by the ICC had a negative impact on Sourav Ganguly's batting average, which plunged from a high 45.5 before the year 2000 to a low 34.9 between the 5 year period of 2001-2005. Also, against Test playing nations (which included Zimbabwe and Bangladesh), his overall average plunged further down to 30.66, as did his 'away' average which fell to 29. He managed to score only (6) centuries between 2001-2005, of which 3 centuries were against Kenya & 1 was against Namibia. This sudden drop in his batting average against Test playing nations after 2001 was clearly a result of the short pitch stuff he had to encounter from opposition bowlers. As S. Rajesh, the assistant editor of Cricinfo analyzes, Sourav Ganguly has been dismissed numerous times fending off the short ball since 2001 and his average of 11.92 against the short ball has been the lowest among contemporary Indian batsman who played more than 80 ODI matches. The former captain has also been uncomfortable while attempting the 'pull' and the 'hook' shots when bowlers have dug it in short, often lasting less than five(4.89) balls before being dismissed.




Also, Sourav Ganguly's Test career had been riddled with lean patches, the first of which stretched for 3 years from Dec 1999 to Dec 2002, during which his batting average fell to 31.7 in 36 consecutive Test matches over 60 innings. The next biggest lean patch of his career occurred after the 2003 World Cup, when his ODI average fell to 28 and this was when his place in the team was questioned by numerous Indian cricket fans. He averaged 23.5 in 20 ODI matches between Sep 2004 and Sep 2005, before being finally dropped from the ODI side.Despite his hot and cold streaks Sourav Ganguly is only the third Indian Test match batsman to maintain a career average that never dipped below 40 runs per innings for his entire Test career. This is more due to his initial career graph, which plummeted alarmingly in the second half of his career. Whereas his contemporaries like Dravid, Tendulkar, Sehwag and Laxman have shown steady improvement in their career graphs, his own happens to have a pronounced downward trend. The other two who achieved this feat are Sunil Gavaskar and Mohammad Azharuddin.




Sourav Ganguly also shares with G. R. Viswanath of India the record for scoring at least 10 or more centuries and his team either winning or drawing each and every match in which he scored a century. He also shares with Mohammad Azharuddin the record of scoring two consecutive hundreds in his first two Test matches, though Azharuddin bettered that by scoring a third consecutive hundred in his first three Test matches.Sourav Ganguly has the highest Test and ODI aggregate of any left-handed batsman India has produced and his 12 Test and 22 ODI centuries are also a record for any Indian left-hander.




It was, however, as captain of the Indian team that Sourav Ganguly's biggest achievements occurred. He led India in a record 49 Test Matches, winning 21 of those, including 12 of them outside India. All three figures are records for Indian Test captains. He also led India to her first series wins in both Tests and ODIs in Pakistan, a feat that had eluded India for over 50 years. Ganguly also led India to more Test wins (11) outside India between 2000 and 2005 than all Indian captains had done between 1980 and 2000. He led India to victory over Steve Waugh led Australia in the 2001 Border-Gavaskar trophy which is considered as one of the greatest in Indian cricket history. However, his captaincy record has no doubt been immensely helped by numerous series against the minnows Bangladesh and Zimbabwe. Against other teams, his captaincy record 12 wins and 12 losses, which is still better than other Indian captains. He also benefitted immensely from the peaking of all the great Indian players during his tenure - Sachin, Dravid, Laxman, Sehwag, Kumble, Srinath and Harbhajan




November 30, 2006, turned out to be lucky for Sourav Ganguly as the national board of selectors, chaired by Dilip Vengsarkar, decided to reinstate him in the team for the three-Test series against South Africa. The decision came after India had been knocked out early of the Champions Trophy, held in India, as well as losing the opening three games of an ODI series with South Africa. The selectors decided to back experience in a total reversal of coach Greg Chappell's mission to inject fresh blood into the Indian cricket team and Ganguly was selected alongside VVS Laxman and Zaheer Khan, who had also been removed from the Test team recently. Ganguly and Zaheer both fared well. Ganguly emerged as leading run getter for India in the recently concluded Test series with South Africa.




January 12, 2007 Sourav Ganguly was reinstated to the ODI team for the first two ODIs against West Indies. This comes almost after 15 months of his removal from the ODI side in 2005. He staged a good comeback by scoring a match-winning 98 run knock in Nagpur on his return in the first ODI. He was also selected in the 30 probables list for World Cup 2007 to be held in West Indies starting in March. He will most likely open the innings with Tendulkar as Virender Sehwag has been dropped for the first two ODIs.This was good news to his fans who believed that India's most successful captain deserved the farewell of a champion. Sourav is a passionate man and fans (possibly selectors too) believe that, after spending ten months in the wilderness, Sourav's desire to succeed at the highest level and his experience will hold him in good stead.




Controversies:




Ganguly is an aggressive player and has often attracted controversy. He has attracted the wrath of match referrees quite a few times, the most severe of which was a ban for 6 matches by ICC match referee Clive Lloyd for slow over rates against Pakistan and therefore his tour to Sri Lanka for the Indian Oil Cup 2005 was uncertain. These circumstances led to Rahul Dravid being made captain for the tour. Later, Justice Albey Sachs reduced the punishment from 6 matches to 4, and this permitted Ganguly to join the team, but as a player and not captain. In his opening match he made the highest score of the side (51) taking (110) balls. He was again named captain for the Zimbabwe tour of August-September 2005. With this, he has captained India in the highest number of Tests (50).During the 2003 World Cup final against Australia, Ganguly won the toss and decided to field. This decision raised eyebrows but Sourav remained confident that there would be moisture on the pitch that would help his bowlers, however the bowlers flopped and Sourav performed poorly with the bat. India went on to lose by 125 runs, a staggering defeat.Ganguly's performance in the last couple of seasons has been really poor. This put his place in the Indian team under pressure. In the tour of Zimbabwe, in which he was newly reinstated as skipper, Ganguly ground out a painfully slow century, against what is regarded as one of the weakest bowling attacks in international cricket. During the match he told reporters that newly-appointed coach Greg Chappell had asked him to stand down as captain - a comment which Chappell later played down. However, forty-eight hours after saying that he respected the Indian captain and looked forward to working with him in the future, Chappell sent an email to the Board of Control for Cricket in India (BCCI). Both Ganguly and Chappell were summoned to a BCCI board meeting in which they agreed to work together for the good of the team. Rahul Dravid was appointed captain for the series against Sri Lanka and South Africa after Ganguly was not selected for the opening games due to injury. When the two series got over, Rahul Dravid was asked to continue as skipper.On November 22, 2005, Ganguly stepped down as captain of Bengal cricket team after being replaced as captain of the Indian Test team. He played in the first two Test matches in the three-Test series against Sri Lanka. However, on December 14, he was controversially dropped, for the third Test at Ahmedabad, to make way for Wasim Jaffer, an opening batsman for Mumbai. Jaffer was picked by the selectors as they wished to build up a player selection pool with sufficient experience to succeed at international level.Despite this, he retained his A-grade contract from the BCCI, in December 2005.Following the drop, fans blocked roads and railway tracks in Kolkata, burning effigies of chief selector Kiran More and Indian coach Chappell, and the urban development minister of West Bengal, Asoke Bhattacharya, said Ganguly was a victim of the internal politics of the BCCI. [9] Cricinfo editor Sambit Bal wrote in a commentary that this was in all probability ... the end of the road for him. [10] However, it was announced on December 25, 2005 that he was selected as part of the Indian team to tour Pakistan. Kiran More cited his experience as the key reason, with Mohammed Kaif being dropped [11]. He was in the playing XI in the Lahore and Karachi Tests, but was dropped for the Faisalabad match, and has not been recalled since. He was unable to play in the England home series and the West Indies tour. He was also not selected for the following Tri-series in Sri Lanka. However, he was chosen amongst 30 probables for the ICC Champions Trophy after being left out in the dark for almost close to a year. Ganguly failed in the Challenger Trophy, however, managing less than 30 runs in two games, and so the chances of recall to the ODI side look bleak.Ganguly later sent an email hitting out at his one time mentor saying that Jagmohan Dalmiya did not deserve to become CAB president as he had played with his career and that Ganguly was a victim of internal politics within the BCCI. This was in the backdrop of the CAB elections which Jagmohan Dalmiya won.




Comeback:




After being dropped from the side for almost eight months, Ganguly was recalled to the Test team for the series against South Africa in December 2006, after an injury to Yuvraj Singh. And after the recall, in his first warm up match against rest of South Africa, he scored fantastic 83 runs when his team was in troublesome position at 69/5. this knock helped India win against rest of South Africa.He went on to play a crucial knock in the first test match, scoring 51 not out in the first innings in a low scoring game. India went on to win the match, its first win in South African soil for 17 years. Though India ended up losing the next two test matches and thus the series, Ganguly emerged as the top run scorer for India, with an aggregate of 214.Selected for the one-day team after his successful Test comeback, he started the series against West Indies with a fluent 98, which led to India winning the match. He played his last international ODI before 500 days. After being rested for the third ODI, he again answered his critics with a sparkling 68 in the final ODI to help India win the series 3-1.




Records:




Test:
Scored a century on Test debut
Scored a century in each of his first two Tests
Captained India in a record 49 Test matches
Led India to a record 21 Test wins
India's most successful Test captain





ODIs:
Second fastest player to reach 10,000 ODI runs
Fastest to reach multiples of 7,000, 8,000, 9,000 ODI Runs
Holds the record, shared with Mahendra Singh Dhoni, for the second highest score by an Indian cricketer in an ODI — 183, against Sri Lanka in 1999.
Held the record, shared with Sachin Tendulkar, for the highest first wicket partnership for India in a ODI match, 258, against Kenya in 2001. This record was bettered by Sri Lankan opening pair of Jayasuriya and Tharanga in 2006 at Headingly.
Was involved in the First 300 run ODI partnership with Rahul Dravid
6th on the all time list with 30 man of the match awards (Sachin Tendulkar leads with 52 awards in 369 matches)
He is also the only player to win 4 consecutive man of the match awards in ODIs.
India's most successful ODI captain
First Indian to Score a ODI Century Against Australia in Australia





Career Statistics:




Tests:
Cumulative Test batting average never fell below 40 runs per innings
He joined another select brand of 3 batsman who made tons in their 1st two Test innings.
Sourav was only the 3rd batsman in the world to score a century on debut at Lords.
His 131 still remains the highest by any batsman on his debut at Lord’s.
Has gotten out on 99 twice in tests only 8 batsman have fallen so. The others are MJK Smith, G Boycott, RB Richardson, JG Wright, MA Atherton, Saleem Malik, GS Blewett





ODI's:
Second Fastest after Viv Richards to reach 6,000 ODI Runs in 147 Innings and Sachin Tendulkar to 10,000 in 263 Innings
Cumulative ODI batting average never fell below 40 runs per innings after his 84th Innings

Monday, October 6, 2008

The Old Burman Classic-Ruby Roy




The radio at the quaint tea-shack next to the bus-stop was playing that old, old Burman classic again. It had been such a long time since i heard that song...




Ruby Roy...I had always mused about her. She is the most enigmatic, most elusive yet the most real persona in literature. She's not Bonolata Sen--that fragment of artistic muse which is unreal, intangible. She's everyone's next door neighbour. The woman everyone knows but nobody can decipher...Every para has its Ruby Roy...women her age gossip about her, young girls are fascinated by her and adolescent boys wait impatiently for Six-o'Clock evenings when she returns home from work. You can see her alighting from the bus on hot summer days... the faint jingle of her nupur echo in the stillness of the afternoon sun.


She smells of crisp cotton sarees and Rain.


And a hint of Lavender perfume perhaps?


She's the quintessence of every woman:hovering like a will-o'the wisp on the edge of the Imagination...caught between the Ordinary and the Ethereal.


She's every boy's first Muse.The pervasive presence in all juvenile romantic poetry.


And She's every boy's first heartbreak...


"Mone pore Ruby Roy kobit'ae tomake ekdin koto kore dekechi/


Aj haye Ruby Roy deke bolo amake,


tomake kothai jeno dekhechi...."