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Saturday, May 14, 2011

life......................

Miss Sad Lonely Life


what is there to live in this ruthless world
what is there to hold me back......
what is there to cry for......
what is there to be faithful,
Because at all the faces I stare...
I see sadness,loneliness and incompetence.....
as I see the faces and eyes..I slowly realise that its a mirror
image of me,me and only me.........

Monday, May 9, 2011

the word called 'LOVE'!!!!!!!!@@@@@@@@??????????..............







some say "love is life"
i say "life is love"
love the one who loves you
and live for the one forever.
i know love is always just,
itcan never rust.
love make one right,
it makes one's life bright.

it was a suprise,
to see myself arise.
it was visible,
she was eligible,
she had a smile
that can take me up a mile.
she had a voice
that let me no choice
i was not a protogonist
it was not a elocutionist.
i was just a lover,
a lover of her friendship and love.
i had the expectation
that she could understand my passion
for i could never mention
the cause of my tension.......
yes i love her
for my eyes are now dire,
the thought of her departure
made my haert go rupture.
love make me a dart
it broke my heart.
it was lyk a onslaught
whose blood never clots.
it was a small prick
but now it is a big brick.
i thought love was a lifetime passion
but it changes with fashion.
friends said that i have gone mad
for i always remain sad.
but this is love
sometimes good,sometimes bad.
now that i go to bed,
i found my eyes red-
it has tear
that was earlier rare.................

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Broken "DREAMS"



My eye flashes open... It was restless sleep.... I was consistently bugged by this dream... which had so much to do with my present life at the moment... I could not take this anymore....
... and then she smiled and mouthed those three words... “I love you”.. the world went into a tumultuous heap... I couldn’t believe it... I had finally won... Victory of love was achieved by me.....

I went over to the adjoining wash basin.. I splashed water several times on my face... I looked up at the mirror... What i found staring back at me wasn’t me... or was it??

... oh... the gardens of romance.... those tunnels of love....

“And the big wheel keep on turning neon burning up above
And I’m just high on the world
Come on and take a low with ma girl
On the tunnel of love”

-Dire Straits....

I wiped my face.. and rested on my bed... My leaden eyes drooped off... another disturbing dream... I woke up... my face covered with beads of sweat....

.... It was a hard time for us.... “The people are spreading rumours about us”, she said... “So what??”... “... I think its time for us to go our separate ways...”

I could not get sleep tonight... My room was dark and murky... a sinister thickness hung in the air... I was all alone in my room... I had to get out of there...I couldn’t stay there...

Yet we couldn’t break off completely.. sworn best friends for ever... We knew everything about each other....I couldn’t help harvesting the seed of love in my heart....

I stared out of the window at the valley down below.... why did it have to happen? Why to me? Curse those people...

.... She was having a very tough time back in her place.... She was being blamed of philandering too much with me... People refused to believe that we’d broken up... cant a girl and a boy remain best of friends?? Is the society so narrow minded? She cried everyday.. I felt like paying the world back for every teardrop she shed...

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I put on my jogging apparel.. I needed some fresh air... But somehow my movements seemed to be uncoordinated... As if I was inebriated.. I put it down to my lack of sleep... A gust of cold wind welcomed me as i opened the door...

... Her friends had threatened to leave her side... She was blamed for something she had never done... for which she had to risk her friendship with everybody... I tried to help but they blamed me to be an accomplice to her “crime”.. We were isolated.. yet we were there for each other... to fight the world together... But she couldn’t bear it anymore... How long could we wage a lost battle?

It was a cold winter night, the mist had just about settled....I shivered.. Damn I should have got that jacket.... I jogged about half a mile to one of my favourite places in the countryside.. I could sit there for hours and in the end feel very content.. Aptly I called it the “peace point”.. I sat there on the cliff with the valley overlooking me as i went through the incidents of the previous day.... a sudden impulse.... to get it all over... after all two steps and I would be free of it all.... Damn it all!!!

... She had left... Neither had she left her number or her address... I was shocked.. I couldn’t find a trace of her... her housekeeper told that one of her relatives had come to take her to her hometown... How could I find her?? My world was shattered.. ... and so was my heart...right there on her doorstep...

The sun arose from behind the hills.... I’d been there for 3 hours but at that moment I realised what a fool I would have been to do what I had contemplated... It was a new day.... It was a fresh start....

“It's a new world
It's a new start
It's alive with the
beating of young
hearts
It's a new day
It's a new plan
I've been waiting for you
Here I am”

-Bryan Adams

I looked down at her doormat... underneath it was her handkerchief.. with the three words that meant the world to me....

“I love you”

I sat down and cried.... Tears of solitude flowing down my cheeks......

Friday, May 6, 2011

future beholds...............




Once upon a time..

..I loved the past
But now I've gone forward...
I've realized I cannot love the past while I'm in the present, so I let go...


I let go of those memories that held me captive for so long..
Those dreams I once knew that were brought to life by you,
Now are only there to help me fall asleep at night
I am going on by myself..

I am going forward into my future with hopes that my new dreams will someday come true just like you had done for me..

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

My last call.........................



my voice is choked
i cannot speak
you tend to go away
but i cannot stop you
tell me,are you forced to go?
or do you want to go?
no,do not answer,because
i fear it is the latter
i know,a few words
i'll speak and you may return
yet the words inside me
remained unexpressed
i know i'll have to regret
about this through my life
i close my eyes in anguish
and two tears moistened my cheeks
you are going,'i realise'
'please' a whisper escapes
but audible only to me
i am deserted
your shadow is receding
but your footprints will remain
my lips are parched,my fingers numb
and so is heart